am i?

tied down

a week ago, i shouted right at your face the same way you did to me

three days ago, i would die to get rid of you

two days ago, i locked myself up and hid under my pillow begging God to make you

disappear

what was i thinking? what exactly was in my mind?

often, i reflected moments we shared together but i couldn't get the ugly fact out of my head

thinking, why am i bound to be yours? why not someone else?

yesterday, i cried and cried at my past and things that i couldn't possibly have

and wth, a bond so strong that i didnt have a chance to encounter

and today, i came to a conclusion that i want you out of my life

ignoring, things that you could provide but you chose not to

and that i hated you but do i really hate you? or do i hate it that i still love you?

and hell yeah, life isn't fair as always and im sorry that i still love you

in sorrows, all of you is what i have and what i will never lose

and thus, love is indeed a powerful bond