sweetlittlething~

I used to...

...read more books then... maybe becuase everything was more interesting? more likely i've just lost interest in many things. lots of things. everything? it's getting there... it will one day, i'm pretty sure. it's not a fun thought =/ but i guess that's life eh? what's life? what's death? what IS anything REALLY? do we "exist"? what is it to exist? how'd this life of ours begin, where's it going ,why is it here? maybe there are answers maybe there aren't... what if everything means nothing? if it's just like a movie you watch then never think about again? maybe that's all we are, a movie a book a play whatever for some other... being or form or who knows what. when it ends, will anyone care? how many times will it be rewatched or reread? maybe that explains deja vu? deja vu is a pretty fancy thing, it's creepy kinda but it's really cool too. i always enjoy it. now i can't tihnk of anything to link off that so I think the rant's done for now...says it's on March. 20th, being tomorrow. Whatever, doesn't really matter much i suppose. I feel sick to my stomach. Last evening was fun for the most part, a soothing experience as a whole. too bad it ended with drizzles, then emo songs all over. Something we both liked very much. But it's just too much for me. I don't want to listen to it because i just want to be happy but i just love listening to it. Crap. shyt.